| Tuesday, October 27th, 2009 |
| 1:03 pm |
The people closest to you...seem so far away. |
| Tuesday, August 4th, 2009 |
| 4:56 pm |
Life at home has is becoming progressively worse and isn't getting better by the day. I really, REALLY need to find my own space. I might have a part time job in the works and am trying ti intern as well. Anything to get out of this hellhole on a daily basis and get my mind off the stress of living at here. I'm trying. I'm staying positive. Current Mood:  stressedCurrent Music: Dredg |
| Wednesday, July 15th, 2009 |
| 12:21 am |
Finding a big boy job post graduation is so fucking hard! |
| Saturday, May 16th, 2009 |
| 11:40 am |
Why do I feel this way? Current Mood:  crappyCurrent Music: "I'm Down" by The Beatles |
| Saturday, April 18th, 2009 |
| 6:35 pm |
Well yesterday was my farewell show for WRED TV. I did my speech and bowed out gracefully. I just hope that people will remember me as more than just the guy who likes to spout out random facts about things or the guy who lies a lot to get a rise out of people. I don't know. I had fun regardless so now just trying to finish out these last few days of school. Current Mood: boredCurrent Music: "Tom Sawyer" by Rush |
| Thursday, April 2nd, 2009 |
| 6:35 pm |
College is winding down. Only 4 more weeks before it's over. This sure was an interesting year and now finally after 5 grueling years, school is finally over. Current Music: "Naked As We Come" by Iron & Wine |
| Tuesday, February 3rd, 2009 |
| 12:16 am |
Welcome Home
I've been wanting to update this thing for awhile now but honestly, anything that was interesting in my life the past couple of months is old news now and not worth writing about. I promise I'll give a more in-depth update sometime in the near future. So, to copy Schiffman, I'm gonna do the super lame 25 random facts thingy from Facebook: 1. One of my nicknames is Troybert. The name started in high school and has somehow followed me to college. It's crazy. 2. I do not drink alcohol. Some people think that's a problem. I do not. 3. I'm tired of New York and feel like I'm wasting away here. There's a whole world around me and I want to see it. 4. I don't know how to be productive and get bored easily. 5. I'm a big movie nerd. It started in my senior year of high school and have been addicted to movies and their details since. 6. I was supposed to graduate last year and still am a little bitter that I didn't. Oh well. 7. I attempted to get my driver's license last fall. Didn't happen. Haven't looked back since. 8. I live in a small apartment with my mom, brother, two sisters and my nephew. That's way too many people. 9. I have had the same iPod for the past 4 years. Other people's iPod's have lasted maybe a year at the most. I'm the only person I know that's had the same one for years. 10. I sometimes have a hard time relating to others and opening up to other people. 11. My middle name is Matthew. 12. Wrestling is my ultimate guilty pleasure. 13. I used to wear contacts before I got a really bad eye infection from them so now I've been advised to wear glasses. Still not used to wearing them consistantly though. 14. I've never movied in my entire life. I live in the same house I was raised in. Don't know what it'll feel like when I eventually do move. 15. I hate snow and rain. 16. I want to be a screenwriter someday. 17. You hardly ever see my without my hat on. That started when I was really little and I actually want to phase it out but it's so hard since it's been a part of my identity for most of my life. 18. My first ever concert was headlined by Alien Ant Farm. Boy, I have sure come a long way since then. 19. I think too much and take some comments to heart sometimes. 20. It's scary how much of the day I spend on the internet. 21. I used to be a huge video game nerd. Don't think I could ever been into that stuff like I once was. 22. I'm not as close to my family as I'd like to think. 23. I was born on the same exact day and hospital as Lindsay Lohan and know two other people who share a birthday with me. 24. People often describe me as being devoid of all emotion. I rarely smile or sound sincere which is kind of a problem. 25. My last name is always mispronounced. |
| Thursday, December 11th, 2008 |
| 7:58 pm |
Movies I wanna see in the next few weeks: The Wrestler The Curious Case of Benjamin Button Milk Slumdog Millionaire Gran Torino Revolutionary Road All look really promising. |
| Wednesday, December 10th, 2008 |
| 10:35 pm |
Oh looooooordy jesus.
So, my final project in my Directing class had me adapt a scene from the play "Fences" by August Wilson. For those not familiar with the play, it's a very race driven work with African American characters. We work with the Acting class down the hall from ours and use their actors for our scenes. Since the play is all African American, my Professor in his infinite wisdom casts me the two WHITEST guys in the class. I had to re-write the dialouge (took out all the N bombs) and had two white guys argue about segregation and "the man". The film came out better than I thought (much better than the piece of crap I did with Marcel and Greg) and it was well receieved in class so, thank god. Today I officially finished my 9th semester at St. John's. I'm only taking two classes next semester and I'm done with school. I have an internship meeting next week for NBC so I hope all goes well. Current Mood:  calmCurrent Music: "Sailin' On" by Bad Brains |
| Monday, October 6th, 2008 |
| 8:17 pm |
So today, a friend of mine asked me to go the city with her and two other friends to a taping of the Conan O' Brien show. I was skeptical at first since these things are first come first serve but we wound up getting there pretty early and getting our tickets. The only annoying thing was waiting for my friend Eric who came at the very last minute before they shut the doors but I'm glad he came along. The taping was so much fun, Conan came into the audience beforehand to chat with the crowd and the show itself was pretty funny. I would definatley do it again with more people and with more shows. Next time, SNL! Current Mood: cheerfulCurrent Music: "Hole In My Life" by The Police |
| Tuesday, September 30th, 2008 |
| 10:40 pm |
1.) Last week, my directing professor handed me a flyer about a special cinema studies course in PARIS. I didn't think too much of it at first but am starting think how much of an incredible oppurtunity this would be for me. Ever since I went to London when I was 15, the only other European city I really wanted to go to is Paris. I'll be studying stuff I love there and getting credit for it as well as enjoying the beautiful country. One very big roadblock that stands in my way though is money. A trip like this is gonna cost thousands of dollars which I do not have so I'm hoping I can work something out, I also need to get my passport renewed since it expired a few years ago and never got it renewed because I thought I wouldn't leave the country for awhile. I'm going to apply though and see if I'm even eligable. 2.) Why's Everybody Always Pickin' On Me? Latley I've been the butt of many jokes and while it's nothing out of the ordinary, I wonder why I've always been THAT guy. I have a professor that likes to snatch my hat off my head during class every single Wednesday while he says how much he loves "picking on Troy". I've tried being less annoying and more aggressive so people would start taking me more seriously but overall, I always seem to be the guy that everyone makes fun of. I've observed other groups of friends and see if it's just me, but even that guy in the group only gets teased and not have the cruel shit I hear on a daily basis. Whether it's in school, hanging out or even at home, It seems that as I get older, some things never change. This is who I am, you can try to change but when it's all said and done, you're always the same person you always were underneath. Now I must finish Accounting homework. Current Mood:  nervousCurrent Music: "Dracula" by Iced Earth |
| Tuesday, September 9th, 2008 |
| 12:29 am |
I'm so much happier at my new job. It's great to work around people you actually like and are your own age doing things that you love doing. I don't understand people sometimes. Why is it that every single time I go out with people, I always get interrogated on why I don't drink alcohol. Well news flash: Not every living human on this planet enjoys alcohol, me included. I've drank before and I didn't like it, it wasn't for me so I stopped. It's become a self-parody that whenever alcohol is mentioned I always get chastised for not doing it. Why? I don't want to have my mind and self-awareness altered in any way. I like experiencing things with every feeling and every emotion 100%, alcohol doesn't do it or me. I enjoy life. Current Mood: determinedCurrent Music: "Give Me The Cure" by Fugazi |
| Thursday, August 7th, 2008 |
| 5:37 pm |
Well I am no longer working at Long Island Cardiovascular. Good Riddance. It was really weird waking up this morning and not having to go to work. I've been working pretty steadily for the past 3 years that I don't know what it's like to have a day off. Now I need to learn how to be more productive with my time. I need something to do when I'm not hanging out with friends that doesn't make me think I wasted an entire day. Going online and watching movies all day is fun once in awhile but I don't wanna be doing that for the next two weeks. My new job at school starts on the 19th. I'll be happy to start working again and getitng out of the house. Current Mood: boredCurrent Music: "Regret" by New Order |
| Wednesday, July 16th, 2008 |
| 8:43 pm |
The newly reunited Eve 6 is playing a show RIGHT NOW in Atlantic City and I'm not there. I'm dissapointed beyond belief. Current Mood: disappointedCurrent Music: "Preaching The End Of The World" by Chris Cornell |
| Sunday, July 6th, 2008 |
| 9:25 pm |
Well, I just turned 22... I went to my first strip club on my birthday and I have no desire to do it ever again, at least not anytime soon. You feel like a complete dirtbag while you're there sticking $1 bills in between women's breasts or panties and girls who "look" like normal everyday woman try to flirt with you just so they can get a dance out of you. It was fun no doubt (what straight male doesn't wanna see hot naked women in real life?) and definatley something everyone should do once but the whole experience is just overall sleazy and you blow hundreds of dollars easily. I don't see how people can do this every weekend or people who have addiction for this shit. Summer's passing by. I wanted to take a trip to Vegas but with all my friends poor (me included), it's not happening. I guess the second best would be Atlantic City (the closest thing to Vegas I'll ever get at this point) which I actually was supposed to take two trips to but at this point it's uncertain if either trip will happen. Meh. I had a very nice and unpredictable 4th. Hope more things happen like this. Amigone. Current Music: "Colorblind" by Counting Crows |
| Wednesday, May 21st, 2008 |
| 11:50 pm |
Summer's Prophecy
School is over Summer is coming One more year left at St. John's Here are some random thoughts: - I don't think anything really changes. I just read over the goals I set for myself last fall and NONE of them came true. I didn't get a spring internship and I didn't get my driver's license just to name a few. - I'm probably gonna quit my job come the fall and work in my school with the Television and Film crew Department. I think it'll work out because I won't have to travel all the way into Manhasset and instead, just work 3 blocks away from my house. - I'm gonna concentrate harder on my school work. I didn't do bad this semester but I wanna do a lot better, I need to stop slacking off and being easily distracted. I think having a job much closer to home will help me with this. - I wanna start keeping in good contact with people. I hate it when you meet someone cool and never wind up talking to them again because of circumstance. Not anymore. This summer on, I'm gonna try not to leave anyone behind. I made some pretty good friends this year and I wanna keep it that way. - I am seriously fed up with New York life and wanna get away for awhile. I would love to just dissapear for one week outside the east coast. Something different for a change. - I wanna take trips this summer. The beach, Coney Island, The zoo, Six Flags, the city, I want it all. I wanna make this summer memorable because it might be my last before entering the "real" world. - I need to stop overthinking things and worrying about dumb shit. Remember those commcercials that aired a couple of years ago about people with severe anxiety disorder? I feel like that a lot latley. Stay Tuned. Current Mood: worriedCurrent Music: "Now" by Days Of The New |
| Tuesday, April 29th, 2008 |
| 9:08 pm |
Kind of upset that I won't be graduating this year like I'm supposed to. Now that school is over in about 2 weeks, everyone is talking about graduating and moving on with their life which is something I should be doing but am gonna be at school for another year and paying out of my ass. I guess slacking off bites you in the ass. |
| Saturday, March 22nd, 2008 |
| 6:36 pm |
Vegas this summer? You bet your ass! |
| Monday, March 17th, 2008 |
| 12:44 am |
Why am I so distant from everybody? Don't you just wish you could be really close to someone but can't no matter how hard you try? Yea, that sucks. |
| Sunday, January 20th, 2008 |
| 7:59 pm |
I got my idea for my costume for Halloween this year:  All I have to do is lose 100 lbs., dye my hair blonde and get awful looking temporary tattoos. Everything else is easy. |
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